Signed up in Dec 2023, I’ve been technically a “ss” for a handful of months. . .

I have looked at several different iss gigs and for some reason I have struggle to accept that first one. . . I also Instacart; so I don’t understand what the issue is with me and that 1st secret shop.

point being…

anyone else having this problem or just me

It gets easier as you do them. Go with stuff you're comfortable doing first then branch out and try something new.

The hardest part of a new journey is always the first step.

I agree with that sentiment, you just have to jump in. I've been nervous about a lot of shops, but as long as you're prepared/have read all instructions I've found it usually goes well. Sometimes something unexpected happens, but you can't know that in advance and just need to think on your feet.